WHY AM I LIKE THIS??

Why am I like this?, I ask myself.
And I answer that it is because
I am meant to be like this,
But the fact is that I mean to be like this.

I act like I care for none, but the fact
Is that no one cares for me.
I think it is their problem
But the problem really lies in me

I know I can change this world
But the fact is I don't want to.
I am hazy and lazy in my dealings
And care the least for others feelings

But the fact is that I really do care,

But choose not to.